Okay, I think we can skip the ‘Geez, it’s been so long since the last posting’ thing, since…you know, I have done with excuses 
. I’m one of those amateur bloggers, who hasn’t been able to stick with this writing stuff for a steady period of time, so forgive me. Besides, a lot of things happened, and…it was difficult to decide what to write.
Arrgh, another classic excuse! 
Let’s just come back to this semi-private space of mine.
You see, being an ‘in between’ person is not completely as cool as I imagined before. When I was busy working on my mini thesis, I wrote down some plans. I wanted to go tripping around Java, try diving in North Sulawesi, checking up the beaches in Bangka, joining a gym class, go shopping in Bandung, or simply playing games all day. Now that I have finished my mini thesis, and got three months before the graduation day, where has the spirit gone? I don’t even have the appetite to play The Sims anymore. All I think now is how to get a job. Or…more specific, thinking of what kind of job do I actually want? 
I know. I know. Sounds a lamer. Even sometimes I don’t feel like I want to have a job too soon. I still want to have some fun and some time to figure what I want.
I still have a right to choose what I want, don’t I?
Or…will there be not too many options left for a not so fresh-graduate like me? I will be 24 years old by the 20th of October this year. Someone told me, people at my age should take post-graduate study. That doesn’t sound exciting. University is borin to the G! Besides, I’m not that kind of person who likes to pursue prestigious things. Title behind your name is prestigious thing. Study abroad for master degree is prestigious thing. But I’m not eager to have any of them. Not yet.
Well, since this is a homecoming post, a self-contemplating one, few words are enough. I am actually sleeeeeepy! But having something to think about doesn’t mean I have missed the fun of being ‘in between’ already. Hehehe. I have four things to catch up : two of them are related to this job thing (missions I won’t tell), the third is designing kebaya for my graduation day, and the last is learning how to drive my own car 
Yeeeaaa…I have never dreamt of driving my own car! I know I am a so lucky biatch! Don’t want to tell you what car it is except ’sporty’. Not until I can drive alone without Dad by my side. Haha. Soon after I get to know my car better, I’ll write a post about its pluses and minuses. Kay?
Meanwhile, buon riposso… 
I never thought that I’m a kind of person who is easily exposed to traumatic and depressive situation. You know, the real depression : when your hands feel cold, your body can’t stop trembling, and uncomfortable feeling on your chest and back. The feeling of extra nervous and anxious. So damn disturbing! 
. I tried everything from sholat, dzikir, exercise, PMR, looking for distraction…they worked well, but only for a while…’til finally I was stucked with anti-depressant pills (which I legally got from a doctor). Now that I have passed the stressor (the mini thesis-examination day), I thought I would have recovered. But I woke up this morning still with the weird feeling. The good thing was no more tremors. Only a little nervousness. Maybe the recovery will take time. I’ll try.
Thanks for your pray and support, pals. Though the result wasn’t something I can be proud of….at least soon they will put S.Sos behind my name . And I really thank Allah for that. Let’s raise our glasses and have a toast!
PS : For those who are now depressed, please find someone whom you can share your feeling with, as soon as possible. I talked to one of my boarding house mates, and to my boyfriend. They were so sweet…they said everything they can to calm me down whenever I got depressed. And every words from them were so precious. Thanks Nanik. Thanks Daniel. Thanks Allah for blessing me with such wonderful people. Love the three of you. Mwah!
Darn it! Belum ada setahun gue punya henpon bagusan dikit, UDAH ILANG dijambret orang 
Ceritanya begini…kemarin malam gue kan lagi naik motor nih sama temen gue. Berdua. Kita abis nonton Transformer 2 di PTC. Saking bagusnya tuh film, sepanjang jalan kita bahaaaaas terus adegan-adegannya. Nah kecepatan motor kita kan sedang, tas gue cangklong di bahu kanan. Pas lagi enak-enaknya ngobrol…sreettt… 
tas gue diambil! Posisi tangan gue kan lagi rada nekuk tuh (mau naikin tali tas), jadi si jambret itu yaaa mulus aja narik tas gue. Gak pake acara tarik-tarikan. Gue panik, temen gue juga. Ngebut lah kita berusaha ngejar. Penjambretnya itu ada empat orang, naik dua motor. Begitu ngambil tas gue, langsung tancap gas gitu mereka. Kita kejar ke arah Kertajaya, eeeeh komplotan itu muter balik! Setaaaan…makin kalap lah kita ngejar . Pake acara tereak-tereak histeris “Jambreeeet! Jambreeeet!”. Tapi orang-orang (mungkin karena saking syoknya ngeliat kita teriak-teriak kalap) cuman bisa nunjuk-nunjuk doang. Gak pake ngejar. Ya sudah…berhubung motor si komplotan lebih canggih (Honda Tiger sama Yamaha RZR)…Nona Kari ngos-ngosan dah. Yang nyetir juga.
Ya sudah. Pasrah.
Tapi dengan sisa harapan, kita keliling-keliling sebentar, siapa tahu bisa papasan sama si komplotan. Pas lagi muter lewat Pucang…kok ada rame-rame? Ada polisi juga. Selidik punya selidik (halah), ternyata dua orang ibu itu juga abis kejambret tasnya! Bahkan dia lebih parah…yang dijambret tasnya itu yang lagi nyetir, jadi si ibu tersebut pake acara terjerembab ke tanah. Mukanya berdarah-darah gitu. Kakinya bengkak. Yang nggak kalah sial mungkin yang dibonceng…karena dia nitipin dompet sama hapenya sama yang nyetir! Yang bikin kita semua geleng-geleng kepala (termasuk pak polisi yang gendut-gendut itu), ciri-ciri pelaku penjambretan sama. Dua motor, satu naik Tiger terus pakai helm putih. Persis sama kayak yang jambret tas gue. Bener-bener komplotan iblis…jarak TKP si ibu sama TKP gue nggak jauh. TKP gue itu di perempatan Dharmawangsa-Kertajaya (dari arah Viaduk), lha TKP si ibu itu di Pucang (depan Susanti kalo gak salah). Jadi…diperkirakan waktu si komplotan kabur dari kejaran gue dan temen gue, mereka masih sempat njambret tas si ibu. Bener-bener bangs*t ya?
Berhubung gue udah kebal sama kehilangan henpon…jadi ya berpikir jernih aja. Langsung ke Polsek Kebon Bibit buat bikin surat keterangan, which will be needed later waktu ngurus KTP, KTM, ATM, NPWP, bla bla. Gue gak berharap banyak lah polisi bakalan bertindak. Hari gini? Mana mau polisi ngurusin penjambretan gini 
. Apalagi yang hilang CUMA henpon. Kalau hilang nyawa sih masih mungkin. Tapi henpon? Biarpun posisi henpon bisa diketahui dari kartu SIM (provider GSM bisa ngasih keterangan, dengan syarat ada instruksi dari Reserse) tapi kecil kemungkinan lah polisi mau repot buat begituan.
Ya sud ya sud. Dari tadi pagi gue udah blokir kartu ATM, tarik tunai pakai buku tabungan, terus blokir SIM card, terus bikin KTM (siaaaaaal, padahal udah mau sidang!), terus beli sisir dan flashdisk baru.
Yang bikin gue sempat nangis bukan duit atau hapenya, tapi di dalam agenda gue itu ada surat-surat yang ditulis adik gue buat gue. Terus ada foto papa sama gue dan Krishna waktu kita masih ngontrak rumah di Jakarta (masih melarat lah istilahnya). Barang-barang itu justru yang sangat bermakna buat gue.
Hmm…believe it or not. Kehilangan henpon ini sudah yang ketiga kalinya. Jadi semacam curse gitu deh. Yang pertama, SE W550 hilang di kos, dicuri. Kedua, N 6120 hilang di kantor, dicuri. Ketiga, N 5800 XM hilang dijambret. Gue-nya kurang sedekah kali ya? Tiap beli hape musti harus ilang dulu, baru setelah beli yang kedua (dan selalu hape yang sama) bakalan awet.
Atau ada yang tahu cara track HP yang hilang lewat GPS? Gue belun sempat nginstall software pelacak GPS apa-apa soalnya. Apa mungkin track ponsel yang hilang lewat IMEI-nya ya? Any suggestion will be very appreciated
Goooooood I miss this blog so much.
Though some suspicious visitors seemed to be wandering around here (and I couldn’t get what some of them were trying to say *stare at the comment box*), but thanks to them for not messing with this blog (I believe there are spammers once I log in to my account). Hahahaha :twisted:. Wait…do I sound so exciting? I do. But what am I excited about?
Well…maybe I’m not that excited. I’m just kind of relieved. I had submitted my mini thesis last week…on the last day, in a rush hour, finally.
Yes, alhamdulillah . My great supervisor, Rachmah Ida, kindly gave her approval signature one hour before the deadline (though I felt much happier to see her smiling at me that afternoon), which flushed away all of my sleepless nights, anxiety, and desperation. Hope I didn’t write anything wrong, because I didn’t have a chance to do tentative reading (last minute man is the worst habit ever, I know!). My printer went wrong, I mis-calculated the ink, I panicked, bla bla .
But those miserable moments had passed, ladies and gentlemen. Now I’m counting on the examination day. And I still need your extra support and extra pray, .
By the way…I wrote this post while I was waiting for the installation of The Sims 3 to complete. God, it consumes my hard disk space! I hope the game won’t lag during the play. And I also hope by the time I uploaded this post, I have found its cheats and walkthroughs :laugh: . I have a plan to install Silent Hill Homecoming too, but I need to evaluate the system requirements first. I think this is a new era of gaming, where there’s no more games under 2 gigs!
Wait…the installation is complete. Gimme a break.
HAH…AWESOME! The game is running well at the beginning (creating the sims, moving to the lots and houses), but then a little bit lagging when enters the gameplay (it takes 30 seconds to move a sim about 10 steps). Well, as I expected before. But I really love the jingles! :mrgreen : Maybe the game will run better in my sister’s computer.
Basicly, The Sims 3 reminds me of Grand Theft Auto, which doesn’t need ‘loading’ to explore the entire neighborhood. The camera will simply follow anywhere the character is going, except inside the theater (I just tried theater, don’t know what will happen with the other building). And…the character is more realistic, especially the eyes. A bit scary though, coz sometimes it feels like the eyes are staring at me :sigh: .
Well, enough for today’s update. I hope I can write longer next time . Have a nice day, everyone!
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